Back to reality

So, I just got back from Winnipeg. I went for a quick visit, a break, a mini holiday just for me. And it was fun, I hung out with my girls, my best bud Cyn, my family and that was great. Cyn and I went out dancing and drinking, got a little disorderly. It was like a flashback to what my life was like before. Before I met Barry, before I had kids, before I moved away. I think about that time in my life all the time, and I thought I was really missing it. Turns out now that I basically went back to that time, it wasn't so great. Yeah I did have alot of fun, but it also made me realize how much I have now. Awesome husband, who yes gets on my nerves sometimes, but awesome none the less, beautiful kids, who while rambunctious and loud remind me how amazing life can be when you let go of all the crap. Yes I know we all have days where we feel like we should have or be doing more - maybe it's just me - but hopfully now I will have more days where I realize how much I do have and not focus so much on what I thinkis missing.
Here's hoping.

Anyone seen me?

Lately I feel as if I have lost myself, or my mind at least. I cannot seem to focus on anything, become easily distracted, lose track of time. I feel like I am someone else. Somedays that isn't a bad thing - being someone else every once and awhile, but on an everyday basis it is becoming more and more frustrating. It is especially frustrating right now as I am temporarily a single parent and everything in our house now rests on my shoulders. I have never been a planner or someone who schedules every moment of the day, but more and more I am thinking I may have to take such drastic measures simply in order to survive. So if you see me somewhere with a dazed and lost expression one my face, please take pity on me and point me in the right direction!