Back to reality

So, I just got back from Winnipeg. I went for a quick visit, a break, a mini holiday just for me. And it was fun, I hung out with my girls, my best bud Cyn, my family and that was great. Cyn and I went out dancing and drinking, got a little disorderly. It was like a flashback to what my life was like before. Before I met Barry, before I had kids, before I moved away. I think about that time in my life all the time, and I thought I was really missing it. Turns out now that I basically went back to that time, it wasn't so great. Yeah I did have alot of fun, but it also made me realize how much I have now. Awesome husband, who yes gets on my nerves sometimes, but awesome none the less, beautiful kids, who while rambunctious and loud remind me how amazing life can be when you let go of all the crap. Yes I know we all have days where we feel like we should have or be doing more - maybe it's just me - but hopfully now I will have more days where I realize how much I do have and not focus so much on what I thinkis missing.
Here's hoping.

Anyone seen me?

Lately I feel as if I have lost myself, or my mind at least. I cannot seem to focus on anything, become easily distracted, lose track of time. I feel like I am someone else. Somedays that isn't a bad thing - being someone else every once and awhile, but on an everyday basis it is becoming more and more frustrating. It is especially frustrating right now as I am temporarily a single parent and everything in our house now rests on my shoulders. I have never been a planner or someone who schedules every moment of the day, but more and more I am thinking I may have to take such drastic measures simply in order to survive. So if you see me somewhere with a dazed and lost expression one my face, please take pity on me and point me in the right direction!

Back agin.....for now anyways.

Alright, alright, I promised Vee I would update my blog. So here I am after months and months of being MIA. What can I say, I have never been a technologically adept person. Though I think it has less to do with the technology and more to do with the fact that I have a hard time with daily routines. All the time I say, oh I can do that, drink more water, remember to take my vitamins, use skin cream before bed, how hard is that, it only takes a few minutes everyday! But after 2 or 3 or the odd time I may make it a whole week before it slips off my radar and becomes another of those things I feel bad about not doing because I should be able to do it, it's easy. Man. So blogging I think is another one of those things, before I know it it has been days, weeks or yes I know months since the last time I updated my blog.
Excuses, excuses I know. But I will try, I promise since this seems to be one of the best ways to keep in touch with my "scrap friends" whom I treasure and miss. So I'll try.

Where have I been?

I know, I know, it's been ages since I have posted! And yet it seems like time just flies by. I have such a problem with time lately. I know I am very fortunate to not have to work, but it seems like my days just fly by and I am not sure how other people with children and jobs and all the other things that need doing, do it. And it makes me feel guilty that I can't even handle my small "easy" life. I get up, take kids to school, some days one, other days both, do errands or shopping, pick up one kid somedays, go home have lunch, do house stuff, (laundry etc.), pick up other kid, go home, make supper, do homework or baths, put kids to bed, maybe have some me time, go to bed. Boring and predictable and small. But yet I feel rushed all the time! Homeworks due tomorrow? What to have for supper that I can make now and not have to defrost? I have no ability to plan ahead is my biggest problem I guess. It just wears me out. Yet another item to add to my list of self-improvements, right under "Lose weight" and "Be more patient" (you've all met my kids)! lol

I hear ya

I just read Lisa's blog and I am so there. I have been thinking alot lately about the whole resolution thing and about what I would like to change in my life. My biggest thing is connecting with people - I think. It is too easy for me to get caught up in the day to day family life that before I know it, it has been weeks since I talk to any of my friends and I think "I should call them tomorrow". Then tomorrow comes and there is more stuff to do and I keep putting it off longer and longer and then suddenly I wonder why am I so lonely? It's nobody's fault but mine. So my resolution is to be a better friend, to stay connected, to make time for all the other relationships in my life besides my husband and children. So Lisa when you call to chat, I will totally go along, if you'll do the same for me! And to all my friends near and far - Merry Christmas!

What day is it?

I love Christmas, really I do. But when did it become so much work? I am so tired and it's still 5 days away! Everytime I turn around there is something else that needs to be done, or bought, or cleaned. Man will I be glad when it's all done and I can go back to sitting on my butt all day, 'cus that's what stay-at-home-mom's do right? Whatever. I'm going to take a nap. Later

Here I am

Okay guys, I have been lurking around reading your blogs and I feel left out. So here I am. Never done this before, never really thought I had anything interesting to say, but whatever. So stay tuned for more insight into the inner madness.......